I Forgive You Mama

Here I am, once again, in the process of going over my life. Looking at what has worked and what hasn't. Looking at what I need to do for my future for me to live a more authentic life. I pop on the internet to do a search and my computer stalls out. This computer has been giving me more and more frustration of late but one must work with what they have.

I picked up a book next to me to flip through and read while waiting for my computer to allow me access. The book is "Sacred Contracts" by Carolyn Myss. I flipped to the front to see what else she has to offer and saw that PBS has created videos of her.

Nearly an hour later, restarting my computer twice (some would say that my computer was assisting the universe, my soul and the Divine to redirect my path.), I google her on YouTube and I came across Carolyn Myss' videos on "Being Fearless." As I sat listening to all eleven of those videos and taking notes, she mentions forgiveness as being one of the greatest things we need to do. I am paraphrasing because I can't remember exactly what she said. I began thinking about forgiveness.

I immediately started thinking about who I wanted or needed to forgive. I thought about what I needed to forgive in myself. I looked at various aspects to forgiving. What it means to forgive and whether or not it is important for another person to forgive you. Truly what really matters is whether or not I feel the forgiveness within myself for myself and others. I really can't control anything else.

The writing just began to pour out of me. I couldn't type fast enough to get the words on the page. Who was I forgiving? Everyone. Myself.

At first I was putting them all together and a little voice in my head insistently said I must start with my mother. I said, "Yes but look at all this material I have shouldn't I just put it all together."

"No," The little voice said again even more urgently. "one at a time."

Now I have learned that if I don't listen to that little voice sooner or later I regret it. After all, my mother is the beginning for me.

As I set up the page, more instructions are coming through. At first it looked like it was going to be in book form. Then another shape began to come into view.

"But I don't know how to do a video." I told the little voice in my head. "I don't know how to put it on YouTube." My inner self kept prodding me. Well I just had to figure it out because that is exactly what I have to do.

My hope is that in viewing this video of forgiveness, it will inspire you to forgive someone in your life including yourself. I encourage you to create your own project of forgiveness.

May you have many sacred moments, magical mysteris and miracles on your journey. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3rEgkHcIBxc

Daily Process

I spent the morning doing InnerSpeak clearings for myself and others. It was very liberating. I feel lighter with a smile on my face. It is incredible to me how easy and painless this process is. It is just a matter of doing it. I have committed to doing InnerSpeak clearings for myself daily to clear away all that isn't needed in my life and to truly move into my authenticity and soul purpose.

My other daily processes are; toning for Ascending Vibration at nine p.m., singing to my ancestors, meditation, journaling and writing, working with clients, working with my creations and listening to my inner self/soul. It is amazing that the more that I do this work the more I am able to hear my inner guidance. Our inner self/soul really does want to communicate with us and would love for us to be able to hear and communicate with them. It is just taking the necessary steps of daily process that allows for that communication.

Journaling questions to ponder.

What patterns in your life have you noticed? Are you working with a tool that allows for clearing of old patterns that no longer serve you? How can you be of service? What can you do to feel more connected and loved?

Affirmations for the day.

I am one with the Universe.

I deeply love myself and all living creatures.

My heart, Your Heart, One Heart.

Allowing Ourselves to be nurtured

I am always amazed that each day the passage for that day in the book "The Language of letting go" by Melody Beattie, Goes along with what I am feeling or what is going at that time. I gain strength form the passages, that I am not alone in the process of rediscovering myself, my feelings and most of all taking responsibility for getting my needs met, in a loving, nurturing way. This was what the daily meditation was for today.

November 18

Allow yourself to be nurtured and loved. be comforted by the presence of someone being there for you. allow yourself to be supported emotionally and cared for.
far to long we stand in the background attending to the needs all the while saying we have no needs of our own. we shut off the part of us that long to be nurtured.
It is time now to claim our needs, to identify those needs, and to understand that we deserve to have those needs met.
The more clear we become about our needs, the greater the possibility that those needs we be met. so, we need to ask our self, what are our needs, what would feel good, and how would we like them to be met.
People can only met our needs when they know from us what we need. Example, encouragement, a hug, a supportive ear.

"Today, I will be open to recognizing my needs for nurturing . I will open to the needs of others around me too. I can begin taking a loving, nurturing attitude toward myself and by taking responsibility for my needs in relationships".

It Takes a Village - A Community For Our Children

I thought being older and wiser I would be better prepared for helping to raise a child. I have raised two daughters already so I should know what I am doing right? I have educated myself, learned more about what children need to thrive and yet still I am feeling overwhelmed and out of my element.

Knowing more doesn't always mean better prepared. I honestly don't remember worrying, as much as I do now about helping to raise my granddaughter, about messing my girls up when they were growing up. I figured I would love them, clothe them, feed them, shelter them, stand by them giving them all the support they need and they would turn out all right. Now I realize how much I screwed up and how things matter that you don't even realize when you are young. Now I find myself scrutinizing everything I do and worrying because I know even the small things effect how they grow, learn and love.

I look around for answers for a better way and I am seeing too many questions. I am seeing too many parents struggling, tired, overwhelmed, and barely having the energy to enjoy their children while virtual strangers are actually raising them and doing even more damage. Babysitters, daycare, schools all are getting ridiculously indifferent to the children and their needs. Parents knowing they are probably not spending enough time with their children as others are raising them and screwing them up even more, that they should start putting money aside for therapy now even though they can't afford it.

What are we doing to our children? Why are we not able to see that parents; our children, sisters, brothers, grandchildren need our help? Sure, you may say that you did better than your parents did but how much better is that really? How long are you going to sit by and watch as our public schools become an even more terrifying place than when you were in school? How long are you going to say, "Its not my problem." How long are you going to stand by while children within your family, neighborhood, community, city, country are left feeling like no one cares if they are bullied, berated, molested, or just starving for someone to notice them.

I know there are systems and organizations out there that are supposedly helping them but they don't help until there is a problem, until the damage is done. All of us need to say enough is enough. You and I need to take responsibility before it is a problem. You and I need to help our families, friends, and neighbors to make sure that the parents are getting the support they need. That the children have lots of people who love them in their lives. That you and I are supporting our children to learn, grow and love. That we are helping the children to explore until they discover their passions in life. That we are supporting them to make wise choices for themselves.

Today make a difference for at least one child in your life and tomorrow and the next day.

• Volunteer to babysit so that the parent/s can take a little time for themselves
• Be a Big Brother or Big Sister
• Volunteer at your neighborhood school
• Ask a parent what you can do to help them
• Tell a parent what a great job they are doing
• Make an effort to be more involved in a young families life on a daily basis
• Write to your neighborhood school supporting the staff and teachers to create a more loving and supportive environment for the children to learn in.
• Ask yourself, "What can I do that would help a child feel more loved and supported?"
• Ask yourself, "What can I do that would help the parents around me feel more loved and supported?"

Lovingly be of service. I am sure if you look around you will see someone close to you that needs help.