Looking into the Shadow

A couple of years ago I kept hearing that I needed to explore and integrate my shadow. I had no clue what that really meant. I went in search through books and the internet to discover what I could. I found this great piece "The Long Bag We Drag Behind Us" by Robert Bly (A Little Book on the Shadow p.17-21). This is a small bit from that piece,

"Let’s talk about the personal shadow first. When we were one or two years old we had what we might visualize as a 360-degree personality. Energy radiated out from all parts of our body and all parts of our psyche. A child running is a living globe of energy. We had a ball of energy, all right; but one day we noticed that our parents didn’t like certain parts of that ball. They said things like: “Can’t you be still?” Or “It isn’t nice to try and kill your brother.” Behind us we have an invisible bag, and the part of us our parents don’t like, we, to keep our parents’ love, put in the bag. By the time we go to school our bag is quite large. Then our teachers have their say: “Good children don’t get angry over such little things.” So we take our anger and put it in the bag. By the time my brother and I were twelve in Madison, Minnesota we were known as “the nice Bly boys.” Our bags were already a mile long."

I discovered excavating my shadow didn't just mean looking at the things I don't like about myself, but at things I had "put in the bag" because it made other people uncomfortable such as my creativity. I have pulled my creativity out of the bag. I now lovingly and playfully explore creativity through art, beads, yarn, fabric, collaging, and just about anything I can try. I am so glad I dared to look into the shadow.

May you journey into your shadow with courage and rejoice at your integration.

Much love and blessings,
Magdalene Althea Morgan - Dancing Shamanic Priestess -
Facilitator, Creatrix, Multi-Dimensional traveler, Transformative Bodywork Therapist. Dancing the Sacred & Creation into being.

Daughters

I emailed my oldest daughter today in hopes that she and I could heal and become closer. I felt compelled to do this for two reasons - I really miss her and how can I move forward and walk my talk unless I do all I can to heal what is between us. She and I have been estranged for a couple of years and it hasn't been good between us since she was 17. She is now 28. I of course made plenty of mistakes as she grew up. I was only 17 when I gave birth to her and I only knew what I had been taught though I really did try to do better than I was raised. Not making excuses just stating what is. Unfortunately it took past her raising to heal my own issues.

I loved her from the time that I knew she was inside my belly and I still do. I would give anything to have a loving relationship with her. All I can do is extend my hand with an open heart and I know what she does with that is up to her.

The mother daughter dynamic is so interesting. What we pass down from generation to generation through our words, deeds, and in our DNA is astonishing. It can be positive and negative. It shapes who we are. What we do with it is something else entirely. We can choose to clear/heal multi-dimensionally forward and backward in time to heal and prevent from passing on the negative traits that have been hurting each generation. There are many avenues for healing multi-dimensionally in this time of such great change on our beautiful planet. Grandmother, Mother, Sister, Daughter Earth. Earth is she. The healing we do for ourselves heals her as well. On all levels in all ways.






Are you estranged with someone in your life? Do you wish that things could be better? Reach out. Hold loving space for healing to happen however that may look. Stay as unattached to the outcome as much as you are able. If angry feelings come up for you, breath and meditate on finding your center, find the love in your heart to move through the anger and let it go. Remember that healing comes multi-dimensionally and even if you don't see immediate results there is always healing when we come from a loving place.

Much Love to you on your healing journey. Blessings to all the women in my life. Blessings to all of the Grandmothers, Mothers, Daughters, and Granddaughters.

Magdalene Althea Morgan - Priestess on the Move - Dancing in the Sacred
Dragonwillow Journeys
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