Digging in the Shadows to Find the Gold

I am mining in the darkness to uncover/discover the gold within the shadow today. Some may say, "What the heck does that mean?" well it means I am looking at what isn't said, what people hold back, what has been suppressed.

My voice was suppressed as a child. Somewhere along the way I regained it but as a child I was afraid to speak. I was afraid of many things; getting in trouble, looking stupid, what was in the dark, what was under my bed, what may peer back at me through my window at night, the kids at school, and I was afraid I would always be sad.

Here I am 35 to 40 years later asking where is the gold within those experiences? Where is the gold in the sadness? Where is the gold of being afraid? Or where is the gold that was suppressed because I was afraid?

It is in the music I play with my native flute. It is in my drawings that are becoming more wild and bold. It is in my writing that will not be suppressed. It is in my voice for I will never be silent again. It is the juiciness that I discover every single day that I am willing to look into those dark places to see what I have forgotten that I used to love, that I used to be good at, that I used to dream of. It is the creativity of a life well lived with authentic purpose.

Delve deep. Discover/uncover for yourself what is waiting in the shadows. It isn't all darkness. There is gold to be found. There is your authentic soul to be remembered.

Honoring Samhain

Samhain is about gratitude for the harvest for all that has come into our lives this past season and year. Having gratitude for the nourishment for out bodies and for the earth. It is also a time to Honor the passing/transition of all those that have gone on to the next phase of their existence in this past year. Recognizing them for their life on this earth, their contributions, their love and all they brought to us, all that they mean to us. We will miss them but we know that they are not gone just transformed to a new way of being.

Transformation happens on all levels in all ways. We are always transforming. The more we are able to flow with transformation the less it will wreck havoc on our lives.

Falling into a river and flailing about you are getting water up your nose and in your mouth, you hit rocks and are tumbled about. Now if you stay calm, you are still in the river but you can flow with the current, keeping your arms close in to your body, floating down the river gently maybe getting a few bumps and bruises but over all much gentler. Allowing yourself to flow with guidance, awareness until you find yourself able to pull yourself out.

How can you apply this to your life? What in your life feels out of control? Take time to sit quietly, going within, breathing deeply. What comes to you that you couldn't see while you were flailing about in the chaos? Allow yourself to take time to journal and dive deeply into the places that feel out of control. Where do you need to float? What do you have to be grateful for? What have you harvested in this past season? Whom do you have unfinished business with that you can journal through, discovering what actions if any are needed on your part.

When you feel complete put music on that feels appropriate for you, swaying, moving, dancing out what nolonger serves you and dancing in the energies that are needed.

Remember to be grateful for all that is in your life, the light the dark no difference.

Much love and blessings to you,
Magdalene Althea Morgan - Dancing Shamanic Priestess
Facilitator, Creatrix, Multi-Dimensional traveler, Transformative Bodywork Therapist. Dancing the Sacred & Creation into being.
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