Essence of Life - A Story Woven in Wordmongering

I lean against her and feel her pain. I feel her unshed tears for the planet. She whispers to me of times gone by, of days that she was worshiped, of days that she was celebrated as life giving. My tears flow down my cheeks unbidden. I listen to her stories, knowing that I may never be able to hear them again. Her voice becomes weaker as I strain to hear every last word.

Balancing Act - Row80 Check in 4

Everything was going so well up until last Saturday. That is when we discovered my partner's grandmother was in the hospital and was scheduled for surgery on Monday. 

I must say that the stress and sleeplessness of having a loved one in the hospital is quite tiring and it is making me feel old. I am usually the one that stays with loved ones at the hospital during their stay and at this point in my life I am feeling ready to hand it to the younger generation. 

Writing Experiment

I am looking for a writer that would like to experiment with a co-writing adventure. We would take turns writing a scene then writing another scene off of each other's writing. It could get interesting where the story leads, it could be just fun or it could turn into something that could be published.

Writing Challenges and Victories - Row80 Check In 3

It is interesting that you never have more or less time. There is always the same number of ours in the day but we are programmed to think there isn’t enough. There isn’t enough time, there isn’t enough resources, there isn’t enough; but there is exactly enough time and resources for everyone.

I have been writing off and on (mostly off) for a good part of my life. I have the same amount of time that I have always had yet I am suddenly writing more than I ever have before; both for my stories and for my blogs. I had hoped that someday would get here but little did I know someday was already here.

I say that because it wasn’t the time that prevented me from writing, it was the fear of what people would think of my writing, it was allowing my wounds to stop me from writing. Seriously, how silly is that; to allow something that someone else said or did to affect how you are?  I am feeling a freedom with my writing that I have never had before.

The only problem I seem to be having right now is in the emotional aspect of my writing. Something is holding back the feelings part of it. It is something I am going to be exploring the next couple of weeks; both within myself and within my writing because really, they are both the same.

I have written/typed 5838 words since Sunday, as well as four blog posts and finished one guest blog post.  That isn’t counting all of the words written/typed replying to comments, making comments on others’ blogs, and my morning pages of 750 plus every morning. I don’t think I really had a clue how much typing I could do in so short a time before. That is what wordmongering and 750words.com has shown me over the last week and a half. It is fascinating how much you can get done when you have given yourself 30 minutes to do it.

I am not sure if everyone gets, really gets, how to use the wordmongering. It is to bust out as many of your streams of consciousness for your stories and blogs as you can within that thirty minutes. No it isn’t all going to be great writing but the more you write the more you let your fingers put down all of the thoughts going through your head about your story then you will find the gold. You can go back and take your time editing, or time yourself editing as well so you don’t over think it. That is why it is called the first draft. Don’t worry about what it looks like or sounds like just type.

My goals for this week are to make sure I do at least one wordmongering a day – We have a lot going on the next week or two. I would appreciate any positive energy you can send our (my family and I) way. I will explain more in a couple of weeks.

Continue doing my morning pages every morning. – I love them and it really helps to purge the clutter in my brain.

Work with writing and feeling the emotions within my writing.

Yes that is all I am going to focus on for this week. Sometimes you just have to keep it simple. 

Blessings,

Morgan

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Creating a Change - Weightloss Wednesday

One simple change can make all the difference in how you feel. Even though this is Weightloss Wednesday, this is about making changes. When you make one simple change in your life it often can create a positive change in how you feel; which can lead to better health. That is what this is all about; feeling good and creating better health through positive changes.

Creating art is something I do for myself to create a change in my mood. When I am in a not so good place, and I am not turning to music and dance, I turn to creating. 

I imagine there are some people out there that are happy exactly as they are but most people I know want to make a change for the better and for a lot of them it is their weight. Hmmm… we do attract into our lives people to mirror us whether we realize it or not. Seeing  that a lot of the people in my life wish to make a physical change says something about me. Can you look around and see the people in your life?  What changes do they want to make. Can you see the similarities for yourself?

Back to creating a change through creativity-Often I feel discontent because I am not doing the work that I love or better put I’m not creating in some form or another. If God made us in his likeness, wouldn’t it be also that he/she made us creators as well. Sure we aren’t creating new worlds but we are creating our lives.  We can create art whether it is with words, painting, sculpting or some other medium. My daughter just created a child and that is the highest order of creation.

If you can allow yourself to explore creativity and not look at it as something that has to be perfect; in fact if you can move into ‘being’ during your creation instead of focusing on the outcome, you may discover the very act of creating can take you to a place filled with love and compassion for yourself. Isn’t that what you want ultimately to love and have compassion for yourself? Wouldn’t you make wiser choices if you loved yourself?  You can change the way you feel. It is something that you have control over even if right in this moment you don’t realize it. You can change the way you feel whether using art, music or dance; you have control over what you are feeling and you can transform it.

Do yourself a favor, get out a pen or pens and paper, let your eyelids droop just a little, take a nice long deep breath and put your pen to paper. Now without lifting it up start drawing lines, circles, and any shapes that come to mind.

Keep doodling until your paper is full or you feel complete.

Remember to take nice long slow deep breaths and not let your pen stop until your paper is full.

When you are done ask yourself how you are feeling. Do you notice feeling calmer, a stillness within? (If you only feel anxiety check out this article) Turn the paper over and write down any observations that you made during your doodling. Ask yourself questions such as; how do I feel right now in this moment. Did you gain any insights during this exercise? 

You can use this technique to journal with or to shift your mood. You can use it to get in touch with your inner self to help you feel more connected. Your loneliness doesn’t stem from not feeling connected to others; your loneliness stems from not feeling connected to Source/God/the Universe/Your Higher Power. And when you or I feel that disconnection we reach for something to fill it, and for some of us it is food.

Change how you feel and I guarantee you will begin to make wiser choices for yourself.  I believe I will reach for my pen now, to begin doodling in my journal once again.

Happy doodling!

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Blessings,
Morgan Dragonwillow